upset times~~

ohh today wasnt that a good day for me.... yesterday night.. found out that i was rejected by ntu... sigh.... 2 spore uni rejected me!!! now ubd left.. its not that i dont want to go ubd.. but financially my family cant afford it... two years in uk waa!! if one year maybe still can... but two years... have to reconsider... sighh... maybe its time to find for more unis to apply... and mayb im gona stay home for this year 2007 just like 2004...

sigh.. so depressing.... feeling sooo like a failure.... its like suddenly all the negative things started coming out in my head ranging from my childhood memories to recent times.. and i was trying to fight it... argh... wanted to go over to my friend's place but somehow unsuccessful... wanted her to company me to the beach but ended up going there alone... but really darn the weather!! the sun was scorching!!!!!! ugggghhh... dont want get sunburned la... me already got darker...!! so ended up going back home.... sighh... chat a lil online then went to sleep for almost 2 hours!! am feeling so wasted... felt like throwing my life away~~~ suddenly i missed the malauz soo much and my friends.... ugghh....

oh yeah... my sis will be going to singapore tomorrow for her course... bringing my hp!! so this whole week.. wont be posing much photos here~~ sigh.... now that reminded me again... i cant go study in spore!!! hahaha we both been there once only..and now that wil be her second and me... i wont be travelling!!! sigh... and i wanted to go to this international borneo tattoo convention in june 29 til july 1 in sibu!!!! but as usual.. will be stuck at home.... but yeah just try to check it out... www.borneoheadhunter.com~~ hhuhu me admire tattoos~~~

ah wellz... as usual me drift away from the main point!! wahhaha... maybe im not that upset... it maybe due to my hormones...-> mood swings!!!! huhu... well next time... i should get ready paper and pencil and write down the things that's going in my head when im moody... so will remember what's the fuss all about!!! wahhaa me sendiri soo pelupa...~ am just lost within myself.. maybe..(?) ughh.. enough of me talking to myself...~

-_-*

saturday, 09.06.07

on friday afternoon... baked the sweetest bars ever!!! cuz of the darn thick caramel i put in between waa plus there was lots of chocolate chips... soo caramel+chocolate chips= very sweet!!!! gosh.. after eating like two bars.. i felt soo sick!! ughh... but it tastes good~~ but luckily my bro is my loyal supporter!! he ate most of them...^_^ and yeaah... a pic of his hand with his new phone...~~ nice~~~

vandalism around my sis workplace!!! huhu

another one!!! but its not that bad laa... not too 'over'... i support!!! =P eeeps!


notices on walls about houses/rooms for rent!!!

on saturday... went up to bandar with my mom and sis.... so my sis went to work in kiulap.. leaving me and mama go jalan kaki around the area... went to buy something from the bakery and ate at thien thien... since it was still so early and hua ho wasnt open yet.. we went to walk around the smaller shops...~~ nicela~~ holding hands with mama while crossing roads!!! haha im such a kid~~ but i love that feeling.. feeling so safe!! huhu... then eventually we walked from hua o area to seri q-lap.... spent time til noon til my sis abis her work~~ then went to yayasan did some grocery shopping....

after that.. went to have lunch at sushi tei~~ my first time there... my first impression-> whoooaaa sooo big the place!! 2 storey again!! kb escapade ahh soo tiny!! wahahhaa....~~ then in the second pic it was taken in the toilet... huhu what a 'view'..?? ^_^"

the environment is nice la... most of the people there are like pinoys~~~ huhu... and the sushis are kind of cheaper!! compared to escapade..~~ but taste like is average la.. okok~~.. the last pic... i looked surprised?? hwahwahwaaaa~~

the set lunches are cheap and delicious and loootsss!!!!!! $9.90!!!! consisted of rice, soup, salad, fruits, baby octopus, fried sui gao and the main dish... sis was chicken something and mine is salmon...~~~ tastes good!!! but a lil too salty..specially the salad...~~ huhu... we stayed there for around an hour...~~ and they were closing!!! but we were still there enjoying our time..!! haha.. they even shut the air-con and the music and the rotating thingy stopped rotating too!!! blleeeehh~~ but nice laa... next time i go there i would love to order the set lunches... wahahaha~

after that went to the mall and see see look look then go buy seafood in pasar gadong.... then to hua ho at bunut... bought dq ice cream... banana pudding blizzard!!! but i was hoping they would put more bananas!!! ^_^ then we balik!!!!

thursday, 07.06.07

ahhh today companied wani down to smsa to pick leena up... and saaaw shirley n eileen!!! i missed them!! hahaha its been a loong time that i havent see them in tudong ...again! wahahaha chat with her for a lil while but ksian wani that she had to round the parking area 4 times! huhu... then went to ayamku and had snack there... but no electricity there.. so it was abit hot and i wanted mashed potato oso nada!!! she replied.. nada current... -_-* sasatzzz... then went jalan jalan at soon lee then to milimewah to find for clothes to let leena change... but after finding here and there.. she ended up malas to buy cuz she malas to change.. wahhaaa... then around noon. we wanted to find razan out for lunch so msged and called her but no replies or picking up her calls... -_-" so had to go over to petrokon to find her.. but we didn't dare to go up find her so we waited downstairs like blur blur ppl... then we finally had the courage to go up to find for her!! but still nada ppl.... luckily mark yun was there... asked him to find razan la.. he gave me a long answer-> suuuuuuuuure! macam so reluctant la huhu.. then i saw my cuzzie!!! goshh he gained weight liaww... couldn't get to chat with him much... he had to go back home.... sighh....

posing again while waiting for razan~~~ then went for lunch with her and her colleagues in the chicken rice restaurant...

frust look!! the only girl eating!!! huhuu we ate already waa so we just drink sja~

after lunch we went jalan jalan for awhile in kb town then to taman jubilee and hang out!! chit chat and talked about the top ten in the world and this and that....~~ cuz in the borneo times got charlene's pic big big waa... and ksian quek... in the newspaper they used 'she' instead of 'he' waa... huhu...enjoyed the wind there~~

the atmosphere that day was nice... we really enjoyed our time there... relaxing!!

leena-> busy playing games with her phone... wani-> reading newspaper... me-> taking pics and enjoying the cream puff! huhu.. before going back take pics again~~

then again we met up in the evening to go llrc and swim!!! ate a little in wanilina's place then off we go!! but sayang leena didnt want to swim... so she had her darling to company her... then razan came a lil later and we had fun!! there was this plastic ball and we used it for floating and all those.. huhu

before swimming and after swimming~~~

had to go before it gets dark.... sighh... i wished that we could stay a lil longer tho....~~~ ^_^

wednesday, 06.06.07

didn't want to flip the calender april-may to june-july....~~~ wahahhahaa cuz i will miss d guy in april~~~ X-D!!!! but have to laaaa huhuhu

aahhh gotta cut the crap!!! ah wellz in the morning i was at home... then in the afternoon around 3 something went to ogdc to meet up with razan and wani cuz they had this pilot briefing or something going on... then.. najib was there too.. soo hanged out there... chitchat till 4 something? then they had to gooooo~~ ohh yeaah at that time there was sas students there... with d ex st mikes ppl~~~ sooo weird!!! really weird.. i still cant believe that sas is now a co-ed school...~ btw saw miss amy, mr ismail and mrs rani.....~~ ^_^

they were sooo hungry!!! that they ate alooot haha and i really love that pancake or something i ordered... there was this peanut butter with maple syrup inside~~ yummy~~~ huhuu

sooo after that.. its taking pics time!!!! but this time i used the small canon digital camera cuz my dad took the nikon to work...~~ so no choice laa... this time... somehow my theme is the beach!!!

shots~~~ 1st pic- me love to see the leaves!, 2nd pic- me loves the 'ripple' effect of the sand and water, 3rd pic... me love the blue sky with white clouds, the light brown sand and green grass being separated~~ haha apa me talking...~~~

that day...the clouds were okaaaay~~ huhu.. 1st pic- it seemed like the clouds were chasing something... 2nd pic- lots ppl there collecting shells and jogging... 3rd pic- a sweet old couple walking while picking up shells~~, 4th pic- the clouds surrounding the sun~, 5th pic- the clouds looked like they would fall onto the building~~ ^_^ 6th pic- half blue half green....-> standard chartered!!! (lame) huhu

some 'artistic' pics...? and yeaa darn the moment when i was taking pics of the flowers... some teenagers were around there and when they saw me... they were giggling and ucap me laaa... hahaha i sabar sja~~ don't care them... its my hobby darn it!!! whahahaa

me enjoying my time alone taking pics around the area~~~~ ughh at the end of the day my hair was sooo oily... the wind at the beach there waa... huhuhu~~

on the way back.... there was this accident just at the junction of ogdc to seria plaza... me kepo kepo and took this pic... the whole bumper of the car came off but am unsure how the driver la... maybe they are ok?? ...hopefully!!! ^_^ then off i balik!

5 songs to intro!!

oh gosh... im currently in love with this song 'subako' by aco... bet not many people will like this track.... but there is something in it that captivates me.. huhu.. a short track which left me having to play it over and over again... short but a beautiful song....~~~



i couldnt get the english translation for this song!! but its something to do with that you are safe but not safe at the same time... haiya... just listen saja!! huhu

another track is 'fly away' by jamosa feat. jay'ed.... well i got it from a webbie..

and her description of the song-> 'Jamosa begins the song quietly. It was a love that the two of them had fallen in so deeply. The very warmth they gave each other was enough, and although the words they exchanged were simple-- they resounded in their hearts. But now things have changed, and hearts have changed. Just as no one knows what tomorrow will bring, their love has fallen apart and they have left each other.

The two of them whisper, “Go ahead fly away,” in a mixture of broken pride and true longing.

Because if it’s true love, just let them go. And if it was meant to be, they’ll come back.'

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee this song is sooo recommended!!!



next is 'kiri' by monoral... its the opening theme for 'ergo proxy' which anime i never get to watch...cuz i accidentally deleted it!!! arrghh... still feeling stressed about it.. huhu... love this song.... =)



You complete my fate
The world unwinds inside of me
You complete my fate
The halo crawls away
You repeat my fate
Rewinding all we can
You refill my place
You refill my place

Come and save me
Come and save me

You complete my fate
The heavens stroll inside of me
You repeat my fate
Revealing who we are
You refill my place
You refill my place

Come and save me
Come and save me

Believe in me
Drink the wine
Take my hand
Fill me up

Believe in me
Drink the wine
Take my hand
Let me follow

i should have posted the next two songs earlier...but now im able to find the english translated lyrics for them both yaaay!!!!

so the next song is 'hallelujah' by rurutia... i sooooo looove the intro of the song!!! violin with thunder'ish' sound...gosh.. duno how to explain... you just have to try listning to it!! a bit rockish song~ ^_^



I hear the distant echo of wild beasts
In the depths of the night I smile and spill the beans about my sins

This bloodthirsty justice

The rusty rain cleanses my dirty body
The ashes of death fall on this town decorated by its many mistakes

Demons sidle up sweetly
Laughing in the hole in my heart

The angels are falling into depravity

The forbidden high that replaces the holy wings
The swirling lust picks up speed and the town falls further

Oh halleluiah, wash it all away

The rusty rain cleanses my dirty body
The ashes of death fall on this town decorated by its many mistakes

The forbidden high that replaces the holy wings
The swirling lust picks up speed and the town falls further

The rusty rain cleanses my dirty body
The ashes of death fall on this town decorated by its many mistakes

the next song is Vedergällningen (Vengeance) by a swedish folk rock band, Garmarna. traditional swedish folk song + dark lyrics = dark and beautiful music!!! hahaha apa me talking.... but one of my favourites...(like duh~ otherwise i won't post it here..=P)its because the song keeps building up piece by piece waa... ughh.. just try to listen to it... and you'll know what i was trying to say..hopefully!!! X-D~



Before the cock crew I was born
- Far are the paths that I follow -
My mother was dead before the dawn
- Long, long she awaited her sorrow

My father travelled the country round,
- Far are the paths that I follow -
An ill stepmother to me he found.
- Long, long she awaited her sorrow

Into a needle she conjured me
And said that longing would torture me
And then she turned me into a knife
And said I would suffer all my life.

She turned me into a pair of shears
And said I'd be stunted all my years.
A grey wolf then she made of me,
And said no good would come of me.

Under this curse I was to suffer
- Far are the paths that I follow -
Till I drank the blood of my own brother.
- Long, long she awaited her sorrow

So then I lay in hiding
- Far are the paths that I follow -
Till my stepmother came riding.
- Long, long she awaited her sorrow

By the bridgehead I lay watching
Till I saw her horse approaching.
And as she passed I caught her
And down from her horse I brought her.

In vengeance cruel and bloody
I took the child from her body.
And when I had drunk my brother's blood,
I became a knight, gallant and good.


well enjoy the songs~~~ ^_^